Dave and Jesse talked yesterday, and Dave offered enough to make us stay. It's a terrifying prospect, really. To leave everything that we know. I was planning on working for Gail for the rest of my life! But I know that it will be good for us. I can't rely on Gail to make things happen for me forever. I can't rely on my family for my identity forever. Jesse and I are a new family, and honestly, Texas will probably be very good for us and force us to get things figured out alot quicker than we would in Oregon. But it's still scary.
I have thought of Abram alot in this process. Actually, that specific verse has been one of my favorites for a long time. To think of packing up and not even knowing where you are going. To have such crazy faith that you would just start walking across the desert, waiting for God to show you where to go. That is huge. I have always wanted to have faith like that, and when things have gotten cloudy, I have tried to trust that God would show me where to go. And He always has. At least, I have always been somewhere, and I never know where I'm going, so I'm guessing that is what happened.
To be perfectly honest, I don't know if this is what God is showing us, but He isn't showing us anything else right now. I have always believed that if He wants me somewhere, He will make it happen, and if He doesn't, then it won't work out. This seems to be working out pretty well. Of course, it's a big step, and would be really hard to take back, but those are the ones that are worth it.
So now, we will step out in faith.
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